I’ve been sick with allergies for the past week which for the most part has made me useless – thus no blog and very little social activity. I had a long overdue follow up appointment with my rhuematologist on Tuesday in which I received multiple sass downs (like 6 shades less than a smack down). One for the lateness in my follow up appointment (I was in TWO car accidents, lady!), the fact that I still like going to the beach (I will only compromise my quality of life so much for something), perhaps maybe I told her that I decided to only take one pill a day because I didn’t entirely believe that I had lupus and she wasn’t too thrilled with that. . ., and that I didn’t wear my sun hat from my car to the medical building (really?? we’re gonna be sassy about that???). After the glares, she went over the bloodwork with me and. . . The test results came back to be “most likely” negative for systemic lupus (the whole body) so I mostly likely have cutaneous lupus (skin only) FOR NOW. Lupus is difficult to pin down and apparently can progress so I’ll be getting bloodwork done every 3 months. I agreed to take the actually prescribed dosage of medication from now on. I asked and yes, the medication is ok with pregnancy. I just hate adding more pills to my already lengthy list of the ones I take for bipolar.
So yay! Let’s add lupus to the mix of diagnoses! I’ve been super careful with the allergy sickness though because the last time it progressed into a full on cold/flu I was knocked out for several days – stuck in bed. I’ve been downing Emergen-C daily and resting. Except!!!!
On Wednesday three friends and I trekked out to the Weeki Wachee Springs for a 5 mile kayaking trip in crystal clear waters where we saw 11 manatees! Three of them were BAYABYS! My friend got a GoPro video as one swam by her, I took a screen shot (because apparently you’ve got to pay to post videos). So check out this lil’ cutie baby manatee who was all of 3 feet long. *Side note, lest you think I’m some kayaking badass, it was my very first time in a kayak and I fell out of my kayak, capsized it (filling it with water which is a huge pain), and ended up ramming my kayak into no less than 10 innocent kayakers who had the misfortune of being in my path when I had no control over where that path was headed. It was a mess.
You do You
I had taken the Wednesday off of work, knowing that it was going to be a busy week, because you know what? This year has been a crazy year for death and tragedy. I’m not yet doing what I love for a living, I’m still searching for my partner in crime, and although I do have friends and hobbies that I find fulfilling I’m not quite at the YOLO level to where I feel like I’m “carpe diem-ing” enough. Instead I’ve decided to focus on the mantra “You do you” because I have to live within the world of paying rent and trying to change what I can “within the system” little by little. I realize life is super short and I’ve been taking big steps in (hopefully) the right directions to make it the one I want, I’m just putting a whole lot less of the stress-inducing pressure that I used to on myself.
Your Expiration Date
So if you came with “Use by [this date]” on your arm like a tub of your favorite guac, what would you be doing differently? Would it be radical changes? Or gradual? Would that depend on the expiration date? Consider this “food” for thought!