(This post is from another Jessie blog, Fourth Wave Business, and is republished here for your enjoyment!)
Holy geez I did exactly what I promised myself I wouldn’t do. I disappeared for far too long and got lost in the game of trying to maintain my mental normalcy while balancing all the life stuff.
A lot has happened in the time I’ve been gone. I started lithium with AMAZING results! Holy crap! Is this how it feels to feel normal? Where’s the lengthy depression, agitation, and pointless sadness? Gone? Alright, cool! I feel 100% myself for the first time in a while – and thanks to the balance of medications I know it’s not just a manic swing disguised as happy times. This is genuine happiness. I still feel stress and anxiety and some restlessness, but none of that can stop me like it used to. I simply pause to reflect on the feeling then move on. I can’t tell you how great that feels.
I have a lot to write about but in order to prevent any readers out there from losing interest in this post I will say the one point that has me on my laptop instead of playing solitaire as per my usual weeknight tendencies (what? solitaire is awesome!).
Ladies and gentleman. . . I have. . . a direction! Now, I say “a” direction because I’ve never been at a lack for direction – quite the opposite – I’ve had a million directions all at once pulling me every which way and thus resulting in getting very little done toward any one single direction I wish to go. But now! Now there’s focus and clarity and I feel this urge deep within me to get this one thing started.
So I’m gonna do it! I’ll be blogging regularly again (like, actually writing it in my planner!) (PS – have you seen this thing?? I’m totally getting one! www.passionplanner.com) and I will be working on my upcoming website – www.fourthwavebiz.com – a place for girls, teens, young women, and women to find resources for deciding and navigating their own career paths. I can’t tell you how excited I am about this.
Definitely stay tuned! I hope to be sharing with you all along the way and maybe asking for you to contribute your own advice – because it’s incredibly valuable, believe it or not!
See you soon! (No, seriously. SOON!)